I have been putting off this post. Something about putting it in writing seems so vulnerable. This is so dear to my heart that by sharing it feels like open heart surgery...
I have decided that I'm not procrastinating any longer.
Ever since we have been engaged, in our pre-marital counseling Joe and I talked about adopting. Since we have been married we knew we were called to adopt and have been praying for God's direction in the timing. Since Elyana was born, we have felt that the next blessing to the Terry tribe would be through adoption.
We have started the process, have been working with our home study agency to complete the paperwork and are hoping to have our home study done next month. The process is long and challenging (so I've heard and read) and we are praying for grace and strength for the journey.
It is inevitable that when we share or someone has heard about us adopting that they want to share a horrific or tragic story about someone they knew whose child went astray or began a drug addict or worse. It has utterly brought me to my knees asking God if He was sure that this is what we are called to as a family. Here is how He sweetly spoke to my heart...
"For He foreordained us (destined us, planned in love for us) to be adopted (revealed) as His own children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the purpose of His will because it pleased Him and was His kind intent]-- (Ephesians 1)
In the providence of His will he planned for us to be adopted. It wasn't plan B, it wasn't some tragic ending, It wasn't a mistake...IT WAS HIS WILL!
For some glorious and redemptive reason he is having a woman on the other side of the globe carry our baby and is going to use us traveling there to pick that sweet thing up to be one of our own to bring Him glory. Although I can't fully wrap my mind around it, Ephesians goes on to say...
[So that we might be] to the praise and the commendation of His glorious grace (favor and mercy), which He so freely bestowed on us in the Beloved.
This weekend, we are headed to Together for Adoption- a conference in Austin that is going to be a-mazing! I pray that I don't break out in the ugly cry when I walk in the door. There are going to be tons of agencies, ministries, church advocates, etc. Some of the sessions that we are going to be attending are "Leading your family through the adoption process," "Adopting outside of your skin color: a gospel-centered view of trans racial adoption," "Funding your adoption," "Human trafficking and adoption." I am praying that its gonna be life changing.